Do you ever get pre-mad?
You know, when you think about or anticipate something someone might say or do (perhaps something they have said or done many times before) and you get all riled up before anything is actually said or done?
I’ve gone so far as to pre-argue and figure out what the other person might say or do should an argument ensue over the thing they haven’t actually said or done yet. Silly, I know.
At this point you are either laughing because you do this yourself or you are thinking, “who is this crazy lady?” If all this sounds too weird, ask yourself this instead: Have you every worried about someone or something?
Worrying is a close relative to being pre-mad. You allow yourself to be upset and emotionally affected by something that may or may not happen in the future (usually over which you have no control).
Why do we humans do this? Why do we worry? Why do we get pre-mad?
I think it has something to do with a desire to be in control. In some sense it is easier to worry now than to be caught off guard later by some bad news or tragedy. It is easier to get pre-mad now than to assume the best about someone and be disappointed later.
We use these things as defense mechanisms, but the catch is there might not be anything to defend against.
It is risky to live in the moment – to let the days unfold without worrying or getting pre-mad. It somehow seems “safer” to hunker down, assume the worst, and worry.
But is it?
This challenge to live in the moment is not a new one. Consider the story of the Israelites in the desert collecting extra manna and trying to save it for the next morning (but “it became wormy and rotten” and made Moses angry). Recall the story of Sarah who worried the Lord’s promise of children would not be fulfilled and scurried around to “make” it happen in her time by getting her maid, Hagar, pregnant. (Worrying and scurrying often go hand in hand.)
But lets also consider those who rose to meet the challenge of living in the moment. The widow with only one handful of meal and a little oil, who obediently fed Elijah and was delighted when her supply did not run out and "she and her household ate for many days." And the disciples who went out in pairs with “nothing for their journey except a staff; no bread, no bag, no money in their belts” and were provided for along the way. (Mark 6:8)
What is the difference between those who worry (scurry and get pre-mad) and those who don’t? Trust. They trust that the One Who is in control of the future knows their need and will provide. Perhaps in His time and in His way, but He will provide. We need not worry (Matt 6:34)), we need not scurry (Luke 10:4), we need not get pre-mad.
Imagine what our lives would be like, if we spent all the time and energy we waste worrying about a future we cannot predict, on getting to know and trust the One Who can.
Wow. Definitely a better use of our time, of our lives!
Today may we trust our God enough to live in the moment – to accept the days as they unfold and trust Him to do the unfolding.
Sigh. Sounds dreamy to me and not risky at all.